Here is a brief synopsis of my life in this moment:
1) My dog is sick. He’ll likely be fine, but currently, everything is miserable, so much so that I’ve boarded him at the vet for the weekend.
2) I’m losing my job in a month and a half. I have no idea what I’ll be doing or where I’ll be living after I leave here.
3) I work with kids I genuinely care about, so I’m super bummed to be leaving them behind.
4) I have exactly zero days off between now and June 4th. Partly, I did this to myself because I volunteered to take a trip to Montreal next week. Partly I did this because my boss’s mom is really sick and he can’t work his weekends, so instead, I’m working them for him. Big props to my two counterparts (both of whom still have jobs next year) for volunteering to take exactly none of his weekends.
I’m sure there’s some good stuff in there too. Like, my sister is getting married! And…well I’m sure there’s other stuff. But sometimes, I need to see it all written out like that, acknowledge that shit is tough in this moment and try my best to take care of myself.
Not to freak you out or anything, but Australian zombie frogs may soon be hopping the earth, vomiting up their babies from eggs incubated in their stomachs.
It’s been a nice run humans, but I think we’re done, zombie frogs are here to relieve us of our duties.
Today was brutally gut wrenching. When you work with and invest in kids, there is often the risk that they will break your heart square in half. But, I have whiskey and this sweet face. So tonight I will cry my tears. Then I will get up tomorrow and do it all again.
Lord in your mercy…
Too much snow.